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Last Days of Summer Well the last days of summer seem to have arrived and I find myself wondering where the time has gone and whether it has been well spent. I am anxiously curious to meet new class mates and delve back into intellectual debate. I am hoping that as I end my final hours as an under grad that I will be blessed with classmates who are actually interested in their trade and dedicated to learning rather than just going through the hoops. I still have not found a thesis and while I am sure the burning bush is not going to give me the answers I seem to spend a vast amount of my time looking outward to the universe for answers rather then inward... likely because I still have a few unresolved issues to deal with and while I have typically clean sorted and organized everything else in the universe I possibly could have I have managed to yet again procrastinate the few import things.... 1> Taxes still have not filed the last two years... man I get drained even think about doing it 2> Coming up with a master thesis ... several reasons: one I want it to be perfect interesting leading edge and if at all possible avant-garde .. fringe stuff that makes good science... two it means finally cutting lose from school and heading out on my own which seems ominous at times ... like having to admit I’m grown up ... rather then youthfully challenged 3> Resolving several of my personal relationships... wow what a mess it is... I think I have come to a new understanding of what clients go through in relationships yo-yo that from the counselor and 1 billion other people perspective should have been over cremated and tossed to the wind years ago... (make mental note to write a book about it some time) in reality I think it boils down to being able to figure out where people fit in your life and what purpose it serves if any and when you add in years of history you end up with a funny distorted picture which no longer represents the truth and then you have to figure out what to do about it... I’m sure you have been there too... 4>Trying to relax... yeah that’s a real tuff one ... special with all the other crap rattling around in my head ... makes you wonder if I ever sleep. |
